Changes

Being a mum is definitely the most rewarding and fulfilling experience that I have ever had. Not to say that I didn’t have wonderful experiences before, I have lead a very rich life full of highs and lows but always searching for somethng. Now I feel complete. Yes they have driven me crazy at times with their incessant screaming and more recently their "no, no, more, more, this, this, mummy, mummy, mummy, MUMMY!" but on the whole they make me feel gloriously warm inside and incredibly proud.

As a mum I would describe myself as pro-breastfeeding, pro co-sleeping, not really a believer in routine, although obviously with twins some sort of routine is essential if life is not to descend into chaos. I don’t believe in sticking them in front of the TV though I do resort to Peppa Pig, which they love, when they can't be otherwise entertained.

I am not as relaxed as I would like to be. I like to plan the day to some extent but I am continually learning that with babies and toddlers things do not always go to plan. They don’t always eat that lovingly prepared meal, they poo just as we are leaving the house, they shout and scream in the supermarket, they hit each other over the head with toys. I have cried with frustration at times.